Monday, January 30, 2006
SOOOO it was a semi long and ever so slightly productive weekend... I didn't do TOOO much cause I had the baby but I got a little bit done... I am tired and achy from NOT going to the gym so tonight it's back to the treadmill for me... Trying to decide on if I am going to get myself a Gazelle or not to work out at home... E is being E but not overly annoying this weekend... That in itself is just a tad scarey! *L*
Now Ethen on the other hand is going to drive me INSANE!!! He is obviously suffering from separation anxiety and SCREAMS anytime I am not in his immediate sight AND touch line.... He's fine if I drop him off to sitter but other then that he's a real pistol lately.... Add to that Deven is slightly unstable and manic and Dilen really needs to be evaluated to see just how out of control his moods/activity are and I am exhausted... The good news is that I am FINALLY starting to get my chin above water though and I am paying off some bills.... YEAH!!!!!! Slowly by surely I am catching up.... Well the boss when home cause his kids are sick so I am gonna boogie out early myself... Til next time...
Now Ethen on the other hand is going to drive me INSANE!!! He is obviously suffering from separation anxiety and SCREAMS anytime I am not in his immediate sight AND touch line.... He's fine if I drop him off to sitter but other then that he's a real pistol lately.... Add to that Deven is slightly unstable and manic and Dilen really needs to be evaluated to see just how out of control his moods/activity are and I am exhausted... The good news is that I am FINALLY starting to get my chin above water though and I am paying off some bills.... YEAH!!!!!! Slowly by surely I am catching up.... Well the boss when home cause his kids are sick so I am gonna boogie out early myself... Til next time...
Friday, January 27, 2006
SOOO the van FINALLY passed inspection and I am good til end of Sept 07!! YEAH!!!!! Miraculously after adding a bit of oil as it was low the heat is even working well again.... That van is a real POS but I am stuck w/it for a few more years...
Annie was good last night considering it was opening night AND it was a middle school production... We had a nice time although we got home a bit later then I would have liked and the boys were tired and whiney last night... Dilen carried his whine over to this morning UGH!!!! We have Deven's pdoc appt today and I will be bringing up Dilen's behavior too to see what the doc thinks....
Not too much else going on.... Well there was the call from Dev's school nurse about the bites on his face... Don't know what to tell you lady - bugs LOVE Deven and he's been outside alot lately since the weather has been warm... It was THE oddest call - like she was fishing for info on us or something... Basically ended w/her saying "well they aren't bothering him so he doesn't have to come home but if they get worse you might want to have them checked out" Gee THANKS lady I hadn't thought about that!!! Besides the fact I have talked to Dev's pedi about the way bugs LOVE him and he's just one of those types of people... It could be because of the medications he's on but I don't know... Guess I will have to really watch my back cause the call just seemed off..... UGH more crap to deal with.... Well til next time....
Annie was good last night considering it was opening night AND it was a middle school production... We had a nice time although we got home a bit later then I would have liked and the boys were tired and whiney last night... Dilen carried his whine over to this morning UGH!!!! We have Deven's pdoc appt today and I will be bringing up Dilen's behavior too to see what the doc thinks....
Not too much else going on.... Well there was the call from Dev's school nurse about the bites on his face... Don't know what to tell you lady - bugs LOVE Deven and he's been outside alot lately since the weather has been warm... It was THE oddest call - like she was fishing for info on us or something... Basically ended w/her saying "well they aren't bothering him so he doesn't have to come home but if they get worse you might want to have them checked out" Gee THANKS lady I hadn't thought about that!!! Besides the fact I have talked to Dev's pedi about the way bugs LOVE him and he's just one of those types of people... It could be because of the medications he's on but I don't know... Guess I will have to really watch my back cause the call just seemed off..... UGH more crap to deal with.... Well til next time....
Thursday, January 26, 2006
It's been a busy busy month for sure... Ethen has dealt w/the stomach bug, a cold, start of another ear infection and a cold again.... He's been cranky and clingy but overall such a joy... I am still going to the gym although I need to work out a schedule/time line for my days in general... Work is work but I have been keeping busy... Deven has been off the wall and I really think he needs a med change or adjustment... Little things like Dilen winning by a small amount in bowling has him flipping out... We got Friday to the pdoc to discuss things.. Dilen is starting to have more and more mood swings and anger issues... Not sure what the deal is with him but his talking all the time and manic activity are growing so I will be commenting to pdoc about him - it might be time for a full school eval and meds.... Otherwise he's good too!! Deven is bowling w/the school again this year and Dilen is doing karate - Deven really just can't handle both so he's sacrificing karate for a session... Tonight we are going to see the school production of ANNIE and we are excited about it... Not much else happening - all else has been fairly calm and quiet... Til next time...
Thursday, January 12, 2006
So it's Thurs and I am a little tired, a tad achy in the hip area and hungry... I have been behaving myself and sticking to the Weight Watchers Points as well as possible... But there are moments when I find myself hungry... I just grab another water instead of eating something... Co-worker gave me the starter kit to look thru and a few things to keep... Should help... I forced myself to go to gym last night even though it was just after 8, I was tired and the baby was CRANKY!!! Actually mom shooed me out cause I was getting a bit frustrated w/the baby.... Well not exactly with him but SOMETHING was bothering him and I couldn't figure out why he was cranky and I guess basically I felt helpless I couldn't sooth him... I went to gym and got on treadmill for 33 min... It's a 3 min warm up and a 30 min program - supposed to be a 5 min cool down but they were closing... I like the pre-programmed things in the treadmill but the machine kept telling me to slow down... *LOL* So far this week I have put in 80 MINUTES (oops hrs was a typo - I am NOT Superwoman!) of exercise - I think that's AWESOME for me - I just need to be sure to keep it up... Tonight I am gonna see about trying the elliptical machine - I understand that is more of a total body work out as opposed to the walking on tread... Well it's almost time to go home - wooo hoooooo - til next time....
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
I am feeling sort of blah and icky lately... In a dark funk and just tired and frustrated... and for once it isn't even cause of E.... Maybe it's the weather or time of year - not sure but just having one of those moments... I am shorter w/the boys and things like mom clinking dishes as she washes them behind me drives me to want to scream at her STOP!!!! Ethen has been a little fussy in the afternoons - he's teething AGAIN and this time it's not going as smoothly as the last 8 teeth... All he wants is to be held and I just want to have a little quiet... The boys are just boys and for the most part they are good - but they do things like sneak all the fruit snacks in the am and eat them all or they get up early and play the Xbox before school KNOWING that is NOT allowed... OR Deven plays football in the hall when I ask and then tell him REPEATEDLY not to do that.... Nothing out of the ordinary - just normal things were they are constantly testing me and lately I end up screaming at them which I HATE HATE HATE... I know some of it is my own fault - I stopped taking my meds - well today I started them again... and I am working on my self image - I started going to gym each evening and I am doing Weight Watchers Points (on my own in a modified version but serious about it) - I want to drop atleast 25 lbs by Easter - which is doable - I just have to stick with it - and everytime I look in the mirror I get my motivation to stick with it.... UGH!!!
Then there is my message boards... I honestly only hang out on two that I have any real attachment to - my April 05 one at BB.net and my Oct 99 one at TPP... Both have had their share of turmoil and drama but seem to have lasting power... ESP the Oct 99 one - we have been together for 7 yrs now and I have met many of the gals in person and plan to attend another meet this summer... Well the site we are at is closing down after next month so we are looking at moving again... The whole subject brings up the pain and drama of the last move when we left Ivillage/Parents Place... Man I got my ass bit off that time and ok maybe I wasn't the most emotionally detached but I was wrung thru the ringer.... I guess the hurt is still not completely scabbed over cause it's been brought back to the surface with the news of our current site closing down... Someone commented about the current group leaders doing sooo much to keep us together and man that just made me feel like crap - forgotten and unappreciated.... Then again I do little more then lurk since all the drama and I am sure I could be missing for a couple weeks and not missed... Common sense tells me I am being too sensitive and overly dramatic but I am having a major WOE IS ME day...... OH well - gotta just keep moving on.... A friend just reminded me that while it's not right - the people most visually in the leader position get all the credit and past leaders are forgotten and it's true.... Those directly in the line of fire at the moment get all the credit or all the crap.... I guess that's why it's lonely at the top.... Ok enough wallowing... Others have it far worse then I.... It's off to nibble on lunch... Til next time....
PS. If you managed to read all of this post and follow my train of thought you can have the extra brownies that are no longer allowed at my house! *L* You earned them - just come and get them!!!
Then there is my message boards... I honestly only hang out on two that I have any real attachment to - my April 05 one at BB.net and my Oct 99 one at TPP... Both have had their share of turmoil and drama but seem to have lasting power... ESP the Oct 99 one - we have been together for 7 yrs now and I have met many of the gals in person and plan to attend another meet this summer... Well the site we are at is closing down after next month so we are looking at moving again... The whole subject brings up the pain and drama of the last move when we left Ivillage/Parents Place... Man I got my ass bit off that time and ok maybe I wasn't the most emotionally detached but I was wrung thru the ringer.... I guess the hurt is still not completely scabbed over cause it's been brought back to the surface with the news of our current site closing down... Someone commented about the current group leaders doing sooo much to keep us together and man that just made me feel like crap - forgotten and unappreciated.... Then again I do little more then lurk since all the drama and I am sure I could be missing for a couple weeks and not missed... Common sense tells me I am being too sensitive and overly dramatic but I am having a major WOE IS ME day...... OH well - gotta just keep moving on.... A friend just reminded me that while it's not right - the people most visually in the leader position get all the credit and past leaders are forgotten and it's true.... Those directly in the line of fire at the moment get all the credit or all the crap.... I guess that's why it's lonely at the top.... Ok enough wallowing... Others have it far worse then I.... It's off to nibble on lunch... Til next time....
PS. If you managed to read all of this post and follow my train of thought you can have the extra brownies that are no longer allowed at my house! *L* You earned them - just come and get them!!!
Sunday, January 08, 2006
SHHHH it's sooo nice and quiet here in the office.... E has the boys since yesterday - the bigger ones anyway... Ethen is home w/my mom snotty and coughing but fairly happy most of the time and I am here at the office relaxing... I need this quiet - I need to recharge my brain as I fear I am totally losing it....
The dumpster for the housing area is just over a block away - not much distance but more then enough when you have a bag or two of trash to carry so we have been putting it in or on the van and stopping by the dumpster on our way out somewhere... I have a bad habit of forgetting that I have it on the van's roof and well it falls off somewhere long my travels! *LOL* Ok so it's funny - the 1st time or two but when it happens 4 or 5 times it becomes a concern - how is it that in the span of less then a couple minutes I forget the trash??? What is going on that I can't remember something so simple as to STOP and put the trash in the dumpster??? I put it ON the van, mom puts it IN the van... I tend to remember it was on the van when I reach the office - like today so now I need to go backtrack and find it completely EMBARASSED!!! Mom puts it IN the van (although usually she is the one that drops it off but sometimes I am the one driving) and I once found/remembered the bag when I had COMPLETED grocery shopping and opened the side door to put the bags of groceries in.... ARRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I guess I REALLY REALLY need a vacation... and if any of you see a trash bag on the side of the road this week - it probably WAS mine! *LOL* Til next time....
The dumpster for the housing area is just over a block away - not much distance but more then enough when you have a bag or two of trash to carry so we have been putting it in or on the van and stopping by the dumpster on our way out somewhere... I have a bad habit of forgetting that I have it on the van's roof and well it falls off somewhere long my travels! *LOL* Ok so it's funny - the 1st time or two but when it happens 4 or 5 times it becomes a concern - how is it that in the span of less then a couple minutes I forget the trash??? What is going on that I can't remember something so simple as to STOP and put the trash in the dumpster??? I put it ON the van, mom puts it IN the van... I tend to remember it was on the van when I reach the office - like today so now I need to go backtrack and find it completely EMBARASSED!!! Mom puts it IN the van (although usually she is the one that drops it off but sometimes I am the one driving) and I once found/remembered the bag when I had COMPLETED grocery shopping and opened the side door to put the bags of groceries in.... ARRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I guess I REALLY REALLY need a vacation... and if any of you see a trash bag on the side of the road this week - it probably WAS mine! *LOL* Til next time....
Thursday, January 05, 2006
All quiet on the western front.... Boys are in school although Deven has this just woke up/still sleepy look - I do hope he's not getting sick... He was home yesterday and vegged in bed almost all day... Dilen has been super whiney but he DOES go to school - just whines the whole time he's getting ready... The van is still acting odd - I no longer have the delay on cold/wet days for the radio but the heat still doesn't blow warm - it's almost like something isn't quite connected right... I ordered new plugs and the cat today... Have to go fail inspection one more time tomorrow then next weekend I will put the parts in and hopefully pass once and for all... We just need to get thru another year w/this van... If I pass inspection I will be good til Sept 2007 - I don't plan on having the van still by then... Everyone keep their fingers crossed for us....
Now can I ask you all about name brand vs generic foods??? Kraft makes Mac N Cheese - it's the cheesiest right??? Deven will NOT eat it - argues with me it's not the right stuff - same with their Easy Mac - he wants Express Mac - the ALDI's version.... I LOVE my children I really do - and even more so when they DON"T want the more pricey stuff - can you imagine arguing w/your child that you are trying to feed them the better version and they want the generic??? It just struck me as sooo odd.... But my wallet loves it! *L*
A quick Ethen update before I go - he's clapping with a little yeah!! He's cruising like crazy and stands for small bits of time without hold on to anyone/thing... He even said Mama too but not consistently... He's a little stinker for sure but such a joy - now if someone could PLEASE PLEASE convince him that we don't wake up til atleast 6 or 6:30!!!! *yawn*
Well it's off to work on timecards - til next time....
Now can I ask you all about name brand vs generic foods??? Kraft makes Mac N Cheese - it's the cheesiest right??? Deven will NOT eat it - argues with me it's not the right stuff - same with their Easy Mac - he wants Express Mac - the ALDI's version.... I LOVE my children I really do - and even more so when they DON"T want the more pricey stuff - can you imagine arguing w/your child that you are trying to feed them the better version and they want the generic??? It just struck me as sooo odd.... But my wallet loves it! *L*
A quick Ethen update before I go - he's clapping with a little yeah!! He's cruising like crazy and stands for small bits of time without hold on to anyone/thing... He even said Mama too but not consistently... He's a little stinker for sure but such a joy - now if someone could PLEASE PLEASE convince him that we don't wake up til atleast 6 or 6:30!!!! *yawn*
Well it's off to work on timecards - til next time....
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
OMG he's totally INSANE!! He calls me and is nice and apologizes for being so heartless and callous on Sunday and expects me to jump for joy and be all happy and sappy??? BAHAHAHAHAHAHA I sooo want to be on his planet!!! Says he broke his finger - a hairline fracture and all they can do is tape it.... OH poor baby - I hope he didn't expect any sympathy from me....
I have a headache - it's pouring outside since yesterday.... The boys were slightly grumpy this morning and Dilen gave me a heard time about going to school.... CRAP I think forgot to give Deven his meds this morning... UGH he should be bouncing around about now..... Oh well....
Ok I am going to finish up a few things and then leave in about an hr.... Til next time....
I have a headache - it's pouring outside since yesterday.... The boys were slightly grumpy this morning and Dilen gave me a heard time about going to school.... CRAP I think forgot to give Deven his meds this morning... UGH he should be bouncing around about now..... Oh well....
Ok I am going to finish up a few things and then leave in about an hr.... Til next time....
Monday, January 02, 2006
New Year's was nice... we had a nice little spread, the boys crashed around 10:10 and were out cold... I went to bed at 10:40 and slept!!! Sunday I came to work only to leave 3 hrs later cause asshat was at it again.... AFTER calling my cell at 1am which I totally missed he called the house phone waking me and Dilen at 3am and 3:30am.... It was be here by 8:30 SHARP or don't bother - we were 6 min late - FUCK HIM!! Then it was "what time are you coming to get them?" then it was I was cutting into his time by coming at 4 - well then don't ask me when I am coming - tell me when you want me to get them!!! Then it was come get them they aren't listening, then it was don't bother they don't want to go home cause they are scared of G'ma and I am keeping them because your mother touched them (My mom was joking and tugged their hair saying her dad used to hit heads together - at total JOKE and the boys were told that but Deven knows just how to play his dad!) and of course add in - I am calling CPS on you for abuse, and then he wanted to swap Xboxes - NO WAY JOSE!!! The boys were given that Xbox to prevent you from controlling it and them - why would I give you a BRAND NEW ONE for your OLD ONE??? Kiss off buddy!!! and it goes on and on.... The man is a complete idiot I swear!!!! Best thing I ever did was get rid of him.... Now to stay strong and learn to ignore him for the most part - problem is I don't trust him - don't trust him at all!!! Til next time...
